Sometimes we can do everything within our own power to succeed, and we will still fail.

That’s what happened in the month of March. And, well, most of April too. I started out my vegan journey strong, feeling small gains each and every day. But then, sciatica happened.

Sciatica is defined as, “Pain affecting the back, hip, and outer side of the leg, caused by compression of a spinal nerve root in the lower back, often owing to degeneration of an intervertebral disk.”


So, here’s where sciatica starts: the lower back.


And here’s where sciatica pain may travel: all the way down to the foot.

For me, it was down to my ankle.

I am not one to experience large amounts of physical pain, so when it happened, I was freaking annoyed. Empathy runs sparse in me when it comes to physical pain, so it was difficult for me to take my own pain seriously. But, let me tell you, this pain. Guys. This PAIN. It felt like my leg was splitting in half. Worse? I felt like my goals were also being split in half.

Here I was, being all health conscious and trying to take care of my body and it was screaming at me to stop whenever I moved.

It seemed like I tried everything. Relaxing. Exercising. Massage. Going to the chiropractor. Stretching. Applying ice. Applying heat. Sleeping. Doing my writing laying down. Doing my writing standing up. Ibuprofen. Tylenol. Nothing seemed to work.

Not only was it difficult to do my regular exercise, but also to do normal things like cooking or taking a shower. When I would go out at all, even to buy groceries, my pain would get so intense that I would sit down in the middle of an aisle and stretch until it was bearable to walk. It must have been pretty hysterical to watch!

Despite being in horrible pain, I would continue to try to do exercises and push myself because I wanted to get a particular result. At the very least, I wanted to move forward. But sometimes, moving forward means taking a step back and going to the basics. If I don’t, I will only feel defeated.

And I did. With that feeling of defeat comes slip ups in other areas of life.

I have been terrify to admit it, but I let my eating habits slip too. I began eating high amounts of sugar–sometimes even splurging on a non-dairy ice-cream cone or cookie.

I’ve felt so ashamed. So, instead of blogging, I’ve been in hiding hoping that no one will find out that I fell off track so freaking early.

How ridiculous! Right? I should have just been honest.

I should have blogged about what was going on. I should have have

Anyways, I am happy to say that I have been pain-free for one week (knock on wood). What finally did it for me was practicing yoga and taking turmeric pills. I will cover both of these in later blogs. For now, let’s just say, I’m ready to be active again!

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